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ikhlas 05.

so much for the hype. datz definitely sumting singaporeans are gud at. esp the malays. no offence anyone, i'm a malay myself.

but i gues criticism helps us grow? datz only of coz, if you accept it.

and ladies and gentlemen, yet another ting we're great at. i dunno why people are so adamant at being wrong.

of coz i dun expect people to be perfect, but the least we culd do is be better.

to be better we haf to get rid of the bad. to rid of the bad, we'l first haf to noe watz the bad, no?

oh yes, the vicious cycle of life dat people tend to deny.

and why did i even go all the way dere? back to the subject at hand. ikhlas.

i waited all day to catch it hoping to enjoy sum great performances. afterall they invited a handful of winners and "stars".

but wen dey rolled the credits at the end of the day, i only remembered ms-kampong-gerl-who-blossoms-and-charms-and-melts-me-everytym-she-smiles-or-sings and mr visually-challenged-project-superstar-star. heh.

and yes people. i didnt mention mr-charming-but-i'm-so-over-you-already-singapore-idol-idol. i expect winners to live up to my expectations of winners - yes mine not anyone else's. i emphasise once again, i dun expect people to be perfect but but but if you noe people look up to you, den i tink itz only fair dat you give people the same amount of respect.

i dun understand why they have to save you for last wen all you did was sang one song.

oh yes, sadly your star has rusted my dear taufik.

i still tink you haf talent and i stil do melt at the sound of your voice. but maybe you shld realise dat wifout ur fans, you wun be where you are now. learn to appreciate boy.

i tink i nid a leash so dat i wun wander off too far whenever i blog. lol.

niwae the show was already short i felt, being only 1 1/2 hour. and juz wen you're getting warmed up wif the show, itz commercial time. and before you noe it, "kita sudah sampai ke penghujung rancangan [we already reached the end of the show]". kinda sad isnt it?

and why izzit dat star awards had mr and mrs president and ikhlas, a charity show, gets only mr minister of health and whatnots. we shld work harder people.

ok, lets run thru the entire event.

first of all, it started out wif the "famous four" anugerah finalists. you four being anugerah [a singing talent show] finalists shld be ashamed to not be performing live for the very very first item. imagine the impression you left on us, or at least me and my brother for dat matter.

anugerah finalists lip-syncing - wat a laugh i tell you.

me and brother kept coming up wif lame-ass excuses to entertain ourselves as you "sing" urself silly.

also, the four of you shld remain as the four of you. you'd make the perfect malay boy band. some of you haf the looks, some the moves (and one not, i shall not say names.), some the vocals. aint dat perfect boy band material. lol.

though you four did end up singing live later on in the show, i was already disappointed. obviously you ppl haven heard of "first impression countslasts". and we were seriously not impressed and trust me, itz gonna last.

and you mr-vasantham- star-who-tried-to-speak-a-little-malay-wen-you-shld-juz-stick-to-english (dis applies to another too, but since i like her, i wun say names too. heh.) i tink the whole of singapore watching was left pondering in pure awe and amazement as to how you managed to be THE vasantham star.

my brother said you won because you were not the best, just dat others were worse. and as much as i culd recall from watching sum of vasantham star's episodes, i can safely agree wif him.

you sang rise and fall, and yes. your voice did rise, and fall. like nangka busuk [direct: rotten jackfruit].

but despite it all, i applauded you. for singing live at least. doesnt matter how it sounded, you won the vasantham star anyway. lol.

and i supposed ur nerves got the better of you, or maybe malays scare you sumhow.

*raises eyebrows*

from indian to chinese, haf i told you how much i loved mr visually challenged voice??

kudos to project superstar for finding such a great talent. i haf to admit dat initially i believed he won partly because of his condition. and dat was definitely before i heard him sing.

it was like woah, literally.

he didnt haf the chinese singing english accent going on like mr-rock-and-roll-sly-fly. his enunciation was gud, making it very very listenable.

you wuldnt tink it was a chinese dude singing the song. like how you wuldnt tink dat it was a malay dude singing wen mr singapore idol sings. if mr visually challenged wasnt visually challenged, i tink he'l go very very far.

ohkay, maybe juz very far. i tend to exaggerate wen i begin to adore sumone or sumting or sumwhatnots.

siti my lady was wonderful. nid i say more? i so can imagine kak nanin go crazy wen she sang, coz i myself the not-die-hard-fan was definitely on the verge. goosebumps. yes, itz damn good shit.

niwae apart from the performances, dey were i tink bout 4 or 5 little dramaskit thingy to show us the different people the donations wil help.

while it was good to noe the problematic and saddening lives, it didnt touch me as much. maybe becoz we didnt really see the actual state of the actual people.

wat dey did was a mere act. and acting wil only and alwys be juz acting. never real no matter how good.

i wasnt touched but it didnt mean dat i didnt donate. i dun juz criticise. i haf a heart too. and it goes out to all dese people.

and you people who haf a heart too, help, while we stil can and willing. i tink the lines wil remain open til feb next year. and oh, the numbers? i totally forgot. wil try to find out if you people really interested.

suddenly i sound too angelic to be true.

*giggles*

but i'm serious, like dead fish serious.

i mean look at dis, people. ever wondered why the chinese always get millions juz from one charity show and we cant even hit a few hundred thousands? dun say itz coz of the numbers. as in more chinese people, more donations. bullshit i tell you.

my brother and i found it ridiculously silly how a chinese artiste can juz stand on one leg and whatnots and wooohooo! the numbers starts jumping like beans on a hot pan (sounds funny but heck!).

i tink you guys get wat i'm getting at. even if you dun wanna donate to ikhlas taa fund, donate elsewhere. to mosques organisations people on the street (only the ones who nid it of coz).

who noes, one day you might nid it too.

lunch tym was fun today.

coz we weren't eating but out to mount alvernia, to visit my manager (su) and her oh-so-cute baby gerl. she haven named her daughter yet coz her mother-in-law has to go to the temple and sought for divine help to find the perfect name, tho she already has one in mind - shriya or shreeya or however itz supposed to be spelt. hehe.

niwae we didnt bring cam so used my fone to take sum pics. i didnt wanna scare her wif the light fr my fone so i only took 3. haha.


her.


her and kak nanin.


her and kak nanin again. lol.

niwae she was the cutest little ting, playing around wif her teeny-weeny tongue, trying to force open her eyes probably to look at all the k-poh ladies surrounding her and interrupting her slp. heh. i told you we're evil people. lol.

niwae listening to dem talk bout the entire experience isnt exactly a turn-ON.

but noting or nobody's gonna stop me fr bringing a wonderful life to my life.

unless except for Him. which i sincerely hope He doesn't.

i juz cant imagine my life, his life, our lives - the emptiness.